As for myself to get to decide how I make the choice as I did as being birth-American as I am. I have enough tragic than most with being American as Puerto Rican descendant and a New Yorker. For that only is the major of my problems. With just a high school diploma and one semester of college in Colombia University in New York in mathematical. Then to join the Navy from 1990-97 was the biggest mistake in my life for the end result of Honor Discharge under Medical. But before all that started when I was a child, I had a learning disability with handicap feature. But this was the further from the truth as school system and medical profession has declare it so. Since 1970's, I was in the poverty level with the rest is really concern with being normally obedience and being dysfunctional as either illness or retardation that the teacher is concern with and my parent didn't know the different, they lower educate themselves and no choice, but as they were told to do so. That how my life got label for society, but actually it was wrong and proof otherwise as I was genius of I.Q. 152 with eccentric trait after few years after the services. But that didn't stop the military from giving me the wrong diagnosis, but really it started with several brain injury with later wrong pharmaceutical drug for years. It left me with catatonic state that was driven by emotional impulse, so basically like brainless zombie for over 15 years. Then sometimes happen that I didn't expect from all place to recover from because I started to use my brain more efficiently than ever before. Then soon afterward I started to incorporate more nutrient for the brain as regular into my diet. Then I started to use and recognize form of pattern and comparison as it started to all come back to me as I were missing my logistic ways that I remember that I once were before and now I have once again found myself in my truth form thinking with the mind that has truly return to me. So really it was True Dungeon that save my life and not the poorly function able Veteran Affair Hospital of being outpatient for years because they would prefer to continual to pour medication down my throat. But actually by accidentally that began to retrain my brain and also additional benefit of the nutritional it is a lot better. Since these two example of being victimize without knowing the true that kept from seeing the true core of the problems that started by the improper diagnosis and mistreatment by my society that impact my life in ways that I can't imagine it happen and the course of my life would had left me to really understand how mess up the overall design of America really is. Unbeknownst to me and also coincidence in the same times of the choice words that I choice and also see is "Phoenix" from rising from it own ashes as to me being beat down each times and rising above it and again and again. The "true" is what set you free and in the "dungeon" is really felt like when I was kept in the dark of things. The name "Eversuede" is the first use in D&D in the 2nd Edition for 5 years for my character until his end was met and then to reuse the same name for True Dungeon for another 8 years as my personal own username. I would like to really thanks to Lori for tell me the inspiring story behind True Dungeon and who is really the drive force of it as I knew Stu from True Grind as he was the DM and later coordinator the set up and take down. We had talked and greeted many times before, but never knew that he was the direct source of my recover process in me. I am internal grateful for him and I really wish that I could personal thanks him from bottom of my heart. Life has the weird ways from a point of tragic that two person who has never met that indirectly is the reason what one has recover while the other is fallen from natural causing to actually know the truth. As my true source morale is align with the character that I play is a Paladin that in reality became victim of circumstance and my wish as unrealistic as it is for Paladin put the healing hands on him as it is a cruel faith that I can't bear to hear or know for I feel helpless to someone like Stu that is a big impact on my life to return the favor in where he has for me. By chance it were not to be, then you are to be my memory and heart as I will continue to tell this story to my child as to what never take thing for granted as a bard should told the tale. As my condolence and prayer for his families and friends from me and my family. True Dungeon is more than a community of gamers, but to me has been more than friend, but a hope for something better that felt like family of love. It not just a game for me, but something that meant more to me then people could realize.
-Eversuede-
Out of the Phoenix's fire, I burned into one arm demon.
Out of the Phoenix's tear, I healed into mortal man.
Out of the Name is Eversuede!!!
